He has been seeking attention in facebook since the day..

Dropping so much of thoughtful shoutout, to get response from others..

Showing how appreciation he is to life, to friends and to many more things in his life at the moment, but not the past.. He sounds so sentimental and understanding. But i feel so awkward.. He seems to be so naive..He never care whats other's feeling but he seems to feel it now. I m not too sure if he realized or it just purely a shoutout of boreedom.

She is right.. He never know how strong impact he left in my life.. A very big impact that can either bring my life one step ahead or drag my life one step backward every moment..But it seems, i leave no impact at all in his life.. I tot i would have heard a "sorry" or "thank you" since after that.. but yet til now, i m just an invisible one in his life..No record in his life just as i was never existed in his family.

I m happy what i had in the past. He gave me hope and promise that made me felt life is meaningful and colourful. He influenced my view of things and people around me to be so great and positive because i had his love to be a positive motivator..

But the hurt he left after that was greater than the happiness..Things that he did and spoken to me, turned the hurt to be a deep scar. I cant blame anyone neither him. But myself. I couldnt understand what changed him.. I was trying hardly to answer what has caused him to forget everything that he said before. Why couldn't i just accept that love cant last forever?I am stupid. The last time i met him, proved that, i m no longer exist in his current life and future. I didnt expect more but just want to see if i existed in his memories. However, his smile his action clearly showed that he has never think or miss a single thing we had before, i am now longer in his D drive. On that day, i grant myself to cry for the last time. Everything should come to an end.

I know i will heal. I know i will get better. But when the day comes?

Looking at his shout out, you dont know how much i would like to drop this message : "your existence might not change the world, but you changed my life alot. Hollowed out part of life that i wish to keep but i have fear to live with it in my future.U never recognize me, because im just a stranger in ur life now."

I will be better.. i believe and i m striving hard. No matter how hard life is, i will strive hard. I never want my life to end this way. I have family and friends who need my existence. I tell myself, you are just a small part of my life, perhaps a small part of my memories.