Total Eclipse of the Heart;

1:03 AM

anybody know what kind of person im? sometimes i don even understand myself.. m i a considering person or m i just a Buffalo? i see myself as a very considering friend. i always think on people's side. i want to bring the best and most convenient to others. However, people that i really close with and care most always might sometimes feel im over and not considering. Maybe THey are ppls who are closest with me, so they probably have higher expectation on me? Or in the other way, maybe im the one expecting too much , especialy when treating ppls who i care most? Its them changing me or i am changing my own expectation on them?

To most frens, they always think i m good in many ways. To most olddies, aunties uncles, also said that i m a nice and easy going and understanding person. But why, when it come for family and people who i really care of, i don seem to be so perfect anymore?

2 theories to explain. EIther its bcz they are most important to you and you are much important to them, therefore unconsciously their level or your level of expectation to them or theirs to you wil be increased. Its at the level of we wil never approach or achieve. the second theory, would be that frens or others hasnt really see you truly like how your family or love did. They just see the good side of you, thats why they are your frens. If your bad sides is more than good side, probably they wont be ur frens anymore..

both are just my theories. No scientic proved yet. Maybe i shall test on that. Maybe for my next research paper, i shall work out with this. To clarified myself here, i m not finding trouble for doing this. Its just purely my interest to know more bout human, to understand why are there so many types of attitudes and thoughts that affected billions of people each year.. Why we are born with this instinct-think/act thru brain processes..

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11:10 AM

no life.. no life.. whatever giving me now, whatever im doing right now, isnt wat i want.. First, its my survey job. Market research is something that i m always not agree on. Whatever survey we doing, is just annoying people and wasting their time and it mite even wasting the clients time. Because, for most of the surveys we got, out of 100, 80 are inaccurate results. When people are doing things that they dont think its a need, will probably just doing for the sake of completing it. Just like me now. im doing thing that i m not agree on, so, im not doing my job wel..

the projects is gettting harder and harder.. expectation is getting higher and higher.. thus, my response rate has been decreasing.. part of frustration make me getting annoyed by this survey job. I dont find any great reason to make this ppl answers those questions that they mite not even understand or necessary.Sometimes ppl tend to push other hard to get wat they want. Its selfish..i felt annoying of mysf..everyday calling ppl that i dont even know about them, sumore have to ask them in help for interview.. OK, market research should be a most important part of marketing.. but isn there a better way to do this? im sure the response will much better in Aus, but MSIA? NO way man... no money no talk.. im not speaking on bias.. its true.. some interviewee i faced even ask for rewards. haiz.. if its me, i mite just hang up any research phone calls..lol...highly appreciate those who willing to be interviewed.
ytd, i started with the OCBC project. Purpose of this survey is to get opinion and feedback about OCBC clients experience at the OCBC branches..again, to improve their services loh..haiz.. really.. what for... if OCBC do their best in services, they wouldn have to worry how ppl think of them and spending so much money for this market company..

first task for ytd, was calling clients from taiping branch... mean calling taiping ppls... no offence to any taiping ppl here.. but i would say that.. taiping ppl...!@#$%..ENGLISH..: No!! no!! NO!! dono u say wat... MANDARIN:..你讲什么。。。。听不懂。。你华语太深了LIAO!!... BM: Har...??.. Har?? apa tu... har,har?? ....SWT SWT.. i mean.. i dono.. i called 50 taiping ppls.. all got oni 12 managed to answer my questions..i expected once i gt the call list.. based on my previous experience... those smaller state, ppl have prob with communication.But i din know its damn bad like this. WHen interviewing these ppls, no more professional english or mandarin should be using.. they barely understand.. have to switch my tone n style to really really MSIA english and mandarin... 'lah..lar..' , 'meh' , 'Ohh..'...'anoh..' must add them in...but what make thing hard was, OCBC representative actualy ask for records in order to testify the accuracy ..SO.. if they heard those english or mandarin, imagine how they mite fel? even before i start the project, i had to go thru a trial test with OCBC to check on my language and communication level oni can further up the survey..should see my face ytd.. lost+frustrate+helpless... haiz.. haiz...

later have to go and follow up what i have stopped ytd.. fortunately, its KL branch today.. however, another difficulty for KL ppl was...KL PPL LO... no money no talk.. no time.. busy... not interested... save ur time.. HELL...

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9:06 PM

dear diary,

i have came back for 3 weeks... rmbr i said i been adapting life here, yea.. now i m stil adapting it..
Although been doing alot for these 3 weeks, however nothing really cheer my days up.. besides those 2 outing with zp n cy... at least time spent with them would left my worries behind..

i have been started working partime as a phone interviewer at sis's bf office since last week. its my first office job, even though i was just a partime worker, but its my first experience of office kind of job. Worked 4 days, involved in 3 projects..dealing with kinds of ppls who has diff status, and ppl frm all over msia. First project i involved was calling those directors and managers from all Msia IT companies...what i did was asking them to share about their company sales and others information bout IT. It was kind of nervous, cz i have never heard anything about IT Brands, or how those IT processes. Eventhough its well paid, but its not as easy as i expected. From my experince, those managers and directors would hardly spare their time out when they were on work. Half of my called lists were having meeting , if not would probably dealing with big business.
Then my second project was to contact Mercedes Benz clients, asking about their satisfaction of those car retailers services.. These so called RICHmen/richwomen, made me nausea... Most of them were either too arogant or mite be TOO BUSY..Mercedes benz..SO WHAT? anyway, to show my professional quality, i would never responded them in bad manner. oh another thing, its always chinese tat being so BA BAI.. malays stil is ok , at least polite and gentle.
Then my third project was working on study of human capitale... still doing it.. response rate was still acceptable.. havent really meet any big problem yet.. tmr will helping in another project from OCBC bank..hope can get the best response rate!
oh ya.. KL traffic is getting more annoying... even 730pm its stil so jam...took me an hour to reach home today plus raining heavily..whole kl is Q-ing in trafiic.. especialy places like ampang.. pandan indah.. cheras... fortunately i stay away from those places..

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2:33 PM

Ooo.. didnt know my blog was still at Graduated moment.. kinda of outdated lately.. not just bout blogging, even latest news, my life, interest were all far away from now.HOwever, still i have done alot, seeing alot after my graduation in the past 2 months.

Let began with the days before my my graduation ceremony, when whole family were here.

Central Market. Just realize, i haven taken photo there..aiks..

Glenelg with dad

18th August 2008, when my whole family were still at adelaide, we rented a tarago, 8 seats car, we headed to Victor Harbour. This time, my dad gt to rest, as Cc has taken his duty to be our driver. As for me, although i have passed the navigator job to Joseph, yet, im still responsible to plan our journey, advising where to go, what to do and destination route. Haiz.. to be honest, i wasnt confident with him...always thinking that i can do better than him..haha... let began our first journey to Mount Lofty. i have been there twice, so, nothing special to me.

THen our next destination was German Village - Handorf.
Its a German street, with two shop lots selling German Good. I have been there once. All we had for the first visit was German Pie, candies and Strawberries from strawberry farm.

German food. Famous German Restaurant at Handof.. Nice food, nice environment, ofcz, Classy price..

German Sausage, if i m not mistaken, this cost us $30++...

Didn't really enjoy the food, having flu and nose blocked, couldnt really taste the food.. such a waste of food.
After stomach was filled, brought my family to the Strawberry Farm.

Joseph planned the next destination for my dad... Winery..dad's favourite. Its winde tasting. dad seems to enjoy himself, joseph enjoyed too.. both boozer..

Then about another half hour drive, we were at VIctor Harbour. My first visit and first trip in adelaide was here. LAst july 2007, whole bunch of us, came here with the Uni trip.

HAhaha...cool..taken by stupid bro.

family's Adelaide trip ended here.

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