Oh, its really a long time since my last post.

Would say, lots of up and down happened in between. Been thru very hard moments (s always isn it?haha), i wish this would be the last time in year to have such painful situations. All will be ended soon, because no more hope will mean no more frustration :) Happiness should be created by self, not depending on other. Finally, i understand what this mean. Also, do not make ursf sad or frustrate because of other's mistakes. I have been thinking, thinking, and analyzing for all things happened in past, i realize, i have been making mysf suffer n hurt because of things people didnt do..Isnt that their fault of Mispromise and irresponsible, why would i take up the consequences n put the blame to mysf? Is that worth to feel sad because his/her fault? Yes, only ur family, u r worth to do so.. But not others.. not even people u love..Because u love him, he mite not Love u like how much u did to him, in order to make the love balance, is impossible...i used to think sincere,honest,loyal and understanding will kp a rship last long and healthy, but it isnt true..No matter how good u r, if the person gt no feeling d, ur hardworks mean nothing to him at all.. its more hurt when ur hardworks been treated as stress and problem to him.. Im here to express my thoughts and feelings without referring anybody, because this circle is happening in everyone of us.

Im learning to take whatever ppl give, regardless of who he/she is. Im learning to stop narrowing mysf to particular situation/thing/ppl/objects. Bt no doubt, its hard. People stubborn like me, take everything as forever, but sometimes i really gt to put down my own belief and learn to GIVE UP..i gt to responsible for my own thoughts and feelings , rather than responsible for other's business.Im too busybody for all this while! haha...but..my dream is still there..i wish one day i would be able to create a person, make him/her with perfect attitudes!! haha..