Total Eclipse of the Heart;

11:41 AM

Im Back

Yesterday was my last moving after so many moves since the past month. Just realize how much stuffs i got. I came with 3 lugages, but now its triple of that.. Im now back to Wilson Street, the house that i used to stay for the first 3 months... sharing room with the 2 devils..Fortunately they are not around for this Summer..Miss my room, the room that i used to stay for the past 3 months..n with lots memories there..when i left, the house is total empty already..those things and memories that used to be there no longer there anymore..i m the last who move out..those 2 in other rooms moved out since last Fri..For the past week, i m living there alone in the empty house by myself.. For the coming 3 weeks, will back with my ex-housemates.. then will have my vacation to Brisbane. By the time back from Brisbane, it will be a week to go b4 my Last Semester start..

Before (my bedroom)

after (my bed)

before (kitchen)

after (totaly empty)

Today is my first day here. Woke up at 1130am...Slept kinda of well as the room is cooling and the matress is big and comfy..and with the big room by mysf. Without them, i m sure this house will be a sweet home. Instead of admitting that We dont like them, we FELT how dif things would've been without them. Will plan for this 3 weeks, not gonna spend like how i did for the past weeks, its just how disapointed and worsted i ve been thru. I will never let other RUin my life..

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11:03 PM

Its another sleepless nite..Seem that i m having chronic insomnia. Everynite, must at least an hour to two to get myself slpt...and everynite i got on bed around 1am...mean i knocked off at 3am..It just happened that i m so hard to fall asleep..it always take so much time to make me mentally tired..though most time im physically exhausted.. When i m on bed, things start coming to my mind, i start to have my psycho thinking again...n it happen again n again...then when i slp..i will get nightmare..of what i have been fantasizing before sleep..Those illusions existed in the dream..See, i even know that are Illusions..still i cant help myself, i cant get myself off from those processes..Oh God, pls help me..im going crazy soon..really really soon...

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11:24 AM

today's main character- An An..a cute baby from my buddhis lodge, he is everyone precious in the centre..to me, he is just too cute..he has something uncommon compared to normal babies..that is..he knows gender differences even thou he is just 1years old..n weird that, he doesnt like female..not really a aunty or gal in the lodge can carry him or play with him..BUT, surprisingly he likes me..n let me hug him all the time...lol...

he is just too charming...haha..i cant get my hands out of him whenver i see him...sure i would hug or CUbit his face..

-2A WilSon Street, Magill- its where i m staying now.. With my 5housemates.. A 'homesweet home' that filled with KinDs of Ppl..

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10:51 AM

Junyi (the one look like the Big Buddha), Wei Zheng..(wx's bro)..Feichai..Noelle..

here some clips to share with u all..you might see ursf there in these videos..haha..n unexpectedly...bcz, i been keeping them in my phone all this while..once a while when i m bored.. or miss u guys, i will watch u all...hehe..

Surprise! haha...this was taken week b4 i left to Adelaide..Played with Cy n Js.

-taken on 1/7/07 by Yi Yee- its my farewell party,after party. Had it at Villa Flora Apartment. People who were caught in the video were Yi Yee, TingWei, CIalyn, Js, Cy, Liangjit, Chinliang, Sm, Jason, Thean!

Oh, reminded me that somebody still owe me lots lots photos of the party..

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8:50 AM

Today i went thru up and down... let me began with the down part of my day..

I been puting too much expectation on others, i treat them with my full heart and concern, in return, i expected that they will accept my kind, my generousity by treating me back just like how they been treated. However, that's not always the case. People accepted ur help ur offers ur generousity, but they never know how to treat u back. Im not gonna mention who are they here. But i swear to GOD, i treat everyone of them sincerely and truelly concern and want the best for them. But i wonder why these ppl can actualy forget or shod i said they ignored what u have done to them. After receiving ur helps, they r totaly a diff person. I ve been always giving out and got no return from them. Sometimes i can just ignore ur coldness n selfishness, but u guys, are just disapointing, seems that i ve never stand a part in ur life and heart. Maybe just a little.. i can not to bother what she is doing,but i cant accept that u are just ignorance and being control by her. Its just few months u both started, n now u r totaly a changed person. Where is the Mr.X i get to know lastime. The one who treated me as true fren, concern bout me, listen to me. I understand that u mite not have time for me anymore, but just a little concern, is that so hard for u?haiz... anyway, thanks to both of u. Becuz of you guys,now i know what best to do is take care of myself better than you guys and learning to treat myself better than i used to....

Now i will share the happy part of my day...Its a big day to me...and this happened under my expectation...i dono where did i get this gut and intention.. A strong intention to take action immediately..haha...know what did? FInaly i don have to live in lie..i built my gut to call mum and let her know that i m in love, and started a relationship..to my surprise, mum's reaction is kinda good and not that scary s i tot..She said she will never stop me or disagree with my decision, instead, she said she is happy for me because i have grown up and matured! lol.. When mum asked who is the HIM, she didnt get surprised as she said she might have predicted... at first, i was still worry tat mum mite not like him, but to my surprise, mum said y m i so worry, s since lastime, she kinda like this guy. I guess its the most touching moment i ever had with mum..i whipped..i began with apology, i told her that that i did something tat u would never like me to do.. haha... sound bit Kua Zhang huh? but its not to my family.. PAktoh, its like a very big deal at home n to my parents.. mum ended the call by hopping i will get my happiness and ask me to take care and be sure what im doing. Besides, she said i may ask him to pay few visit at home and ask him to have few drinks with her. What my mum great is, she will never make my fren feel bad or make my fren difficult. Im sure my mum will like him more nextime.. but one thing i didnt tel mum was, when i started. i just told her the feeling became stronger when i m here..now i told her we are now together...Yipee..i dont have to hide my feeling anymore..i alwiz dream to share my life and feeling with parents, but never get the chance and gut. Now i had my first step out, i told my mum... but not dad yet.. when its the right time, i will talk to dad..but just not now..he is still that stubborn and not understanding..Cheer for future! =)

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7:55 PM

Life get to be very blue when u r lonely...

Just realize that all these while i have a very narrow life circle. I don't have much events or people with me in my life. Especialy on these days, when he has gone back, i just realize how little friends i have and how boring my life is at Adelaide. There is just me and my room. Its completely a different form of life now.What will spend most of the time is just on the comp, watching dvds or surfing the net. Being alone, you wouldn't have the passion to do lots of things. For me, i don't go to the kitchen anymore, i don't shop anymore. Since yesterday, i spent my time on work. I worked 5 hours yesterday and was working 12pm-9pm today. Tomorrow will be working for the whole afternoon.Though its tired, especialy my leg ache, but it make my day better. At least, it doesn't allow me to think much when i m working. Today been a busy day. The business never stop today. Customers kept coming. Been serving and watching kinds of people from this job. Its astonishing to know that same human but there are kinds of attitudes within them..Just looking at the way they buy for food, you can actually classify them in groups edi..Working here i get to know some new friends, work colleague...but still not close with them as its just my second week of working. Then had a chat with this gal, she is from China, currently studying master in UnisSa, bf ditch her alone here and has gone back to China..Just like me..poor thing..but she is worst than me as the guy went back on earlier Dec..haiz..

Sometimes really curious about the gender differences..How come we gals can make so much sacrifices for the one we love but how come guy is always so rational and do things based on black and white but not just feeling? That's the different between guys and gals..another colleague of mine sacrificed even more, she actualy come Aus to accompany her bf study. Which mean her bf is studyin while is just working part time here.. i wonder how her guy felt for himself and felt for her..Ofcz, thats just part of gals not every gals will be that generous or shall call it SHA...Stil i believe that up to 50% of gals are that stupid when they are in love...haha..neither i

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5:00 PM

Happy New Year ~ 2008! ~

It's my first post for 2008. Happy New Year.. What's resolution for this year? emmm...i have none o...maybe all this while never actualy do what as planned and nothing much changed..thus..Frustrated edi..rather just let the life goes on as how its faithed to be...Just hoping that, life in 2008 can be better than 2007. Everything get better every year.

31st Dec 2007
kbox and dinner with frenz at nite and went to the countdown celebration at festival centre.

1st Jan
rested the whole day at home, then were out for dinner.

2nd Jan
went to Tea Tree Plaza to get my camera changed. So finaly i decided to refund and get the black one. Then shopped around. Got some cheap and reduced Christmas items.. eg: Christmas Cards, 50 in a box for just 70cent...
3rd Jan, me, cc, mp, jacob, meiling, cj, chiu hui n joseph went to O Brien. we had fun this time. We really get to the dance floor and danced.lol..Its kind of way to release stress, but not too often to go there s PUB..not a very healthy place..

4th Jan
early morning i received a call. Was so delighted, after a month of sending so much of resumes, finally i get a response. Finanly i received a call from one of the shops that i applied for job. Its at Myer foodcourt.

5th Jan
today, i went for 3 hours training...The job isnt tat hard or stress,kinda free and easy but i just cant stand the hot of the hot plate...n also the heat...anyway, i will just get on to the job...Till i get my next call of another job..will work now s been wasted a month at home doing nothing...At nite, paid my first visit to HQ, i guess is the biggest n crowded club in Adelaide city..its Meiling's idea again, as she is goin bac Msia very soon, so, all of us accompanied her to the club again...This club isnt free, we paid $11 per entrance..then i tried SmirNOff black label...tasted quite good...We always fancied on those glasses vodka..this time we tried something diffrent, we had those bottle one..bout the SmirnOFF with black bottle, never ever go n try it..gosh ...it taste awful..i wasnt keen on it...it tasted like COla+Coffee+Vanilla+VOdka....i really dislike it ...we went there at 11pm...first time in my life, i went to club til so late..after get Crazy by the loud music and watched all kind of 'LIVE Show..'...as u know, many things can been seen in Club...all kind of ppl and cases....230am, we get to the nearest McD...then headed back to the Pub til 4am...Nothing fun bout Clubbing..to me, its just another gathering among friends..or maybe should call it Farewell...

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12:30 PM

Been lazy to write for blog, mayb taken too much time to rest and get lazier edi..Brain get rusty soon. Anyway, i think photo will explain best...these are what i done...for my New Year eve, New Year and so on...

Adelaide festival centre ground
New year eve's celebration event at festival event ground
Last dinner for 2007- RedRock
its Rundle mall behind us -taken 31st Dec 2007
Prefer the first one
Blue is the best among all
Diva on SAle, these what i got..lol..

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