Total Eclipse of the Heart;

6:16 PM

爱里行动不便追不上你的美
脚步再快跟不上你的嘴
分开我骗了谁想擦掉你的脸
擦不掉痛却更明显
你说你要的世界在很远我不了解
分手就分手
别把话说得太美我像个残废
飞不出你的世界
借不到一点安慰为什么你拼命后退
退到了边界
结果我没了知觉就连痛都嫌浪费
在爱里残废
非弄得伤痕累累累到我无力再追
最怕你突然要挽回
回到了原点原点却又像终点
然后多痛一遍
爱里行动不便追不上你的美
脚步再快跟不上你的嘴
分开我骗了谁想擦掉你的脸
擦不掉痛却更明显
你说你要的世界在很远我不了解
分手就分手别把话说得太美

我像个残废
飞不出你的世界借不到一点安慰
为什么你拼命后退
退到了边界结果我没了知觉
就连痛都嫌浪费
在爱里残废非弄得伤痕累累
累到我无力再追
最怕你突然要挽回回到了原点
原点却又像终点
然后多痛一遍
我像个残废飞不出你的世界
借不到一点安慰
为什么你拼命后退退到了边界
结果我没了知觉
就连痛都嫌浪费在爱里残废
非弄得伤痕累累
累到我无力再追最怕你突然要挽回
回到了原点
原点却又像终点然后多痛一遍
我像个残废在爱里残废

who care.

8:20 PM

才发现，我没有一天能够开心的起身然后开心的睡觉。总是当夜深人静的时候，那些不好的记忆，不开心的情景又会反复在我的脑海里。惨咯，我现在已经害怕晚上的到来，我害怕一个人的时候。。我控制自己不去想那些曾经对我伤害的人，不让自己对周遭抱有希望，因为希望总是为我带来很多的失望和伤痛。对周遭的是我以决定保持没不管心。。有时候忠绝得自己太鸡婆，在乎太多。。因为我总是有想改变周遭，改变别人。。。可是，我就是贱，贱骨头！说好了不该做的东西，还是每天在重犯。为什么？为什么我就不能对我自己好一些，爱我自己多一些？不值得做的事情，就别做了嘛，为什么？为什么我就不能理智一些，像个成熟的人，做得成熟和想得成熟些呢？我一直以来的坚持性格到那去？说真的，我无法不承认自己变了很多。。性格应该没很大的改变，可是我的原则，我的想法已不在和以前一样了。也许长大了，问题也多了。。担心也多了。。我快二十一了。。我希望自己可以活得像个二十一。。今年的新年就这样默默地过了，对我来说并不是什么值得开心的节日，我的生活并不会因为一个节日就有所改变。。每年的节日都一样。什么新年新希望，我的没了。今年的大年初一，我已经历了由此以来最伤痛的一晚，（也许，会觉得“伤痛”这字太夸张了吧，但对我来说，这字恰好的形容了我那天的心情，痛。。心真的会痛。。你体验过吗？那不是只是一般的形容词，它正是如假包换的痛！）。。所以呢，新年有什么不一样？还不是大家挂在嘴边的一个节日而已。朋友说大年初一别洗头，以免洗去了福气和好运。。可是我呢，却偏偏一大早就洗。。反正我都没什么福气了，不如换个想法，把自己的怨气和霉气给洗净吧。

回想起，这些日子，我过得太不值得了，我可以做的事情不单单只是这一些，而是很多很多。。假如我当时把我的心思，我的时间，我的精神，散脱在各方面也属就不会像现在一样了。。未来的日子，应该会更难过，可是，我会尽我所能，让自己过得好些，也让那些许要更多帮助和爱的人，得到共同的享乐。虽然有些难度，但我会做自己的本分。。其他的，我就不要在做无谓的事情了。。愿我来日可过得值得，不在有遗憾！！

who care.

6:07 PM

~Graduating soon!~

Just a degree of mine, will just give me the first step to become a professional psychologist. I am in dilemma now. Should I undertake postgraduate to study further as psychologist or should I just find a job in other industries after my degree. All this while, I know that there is a wide range of industries for us, who graduated in a Bachelor of Psychology to be positioned. As long as these jobs demand skills involving human interactions, research (im not keen on), and the most critical works are those who involve in analytical skills (nah, this I think I can master better among all, lol), to design/conduct/evaluate projects. It still broad that I can’t narrow down my focus on any particular sector. Til now, Im not really sure which sector interest me. Maybe I m not prepared to enter the job market?

As I know, most psychology graduates tend to be employed as project/program administrators (kinda like the business admin, I think), welfare and community workers (I think this category of ppl pay their pocket money instead of getting paid.), disability workers (I used to consider bout it), human resource professionals. According to lecturer, he said that average weekly earning for a project/program administrator or human resource professional can earn around $1000 per week…wah.. But im not about in Msia’s market. If really can earn that much, I mite consider about that. Haha. Since my first priority as psychologist might not be able to achieve so soon, then project administrator or community workers might be in my consideration. Besides, I think government administration, education might not bad too. But still, I think my major interest is working at the health and community services. Besides psychologist, I m always wanted to be counselor. If I really decided to work in the counseling field, guess will take another 2 ½ years to get my 4th year and master. Or should I just hold a degree and start my working life?haiz.. I believe when its time to decide, there sure be lots of circumstances that will influence and preventing me from making decision. If I could leave all the blockage and influences aside, I will start hunting for a better Uni to study postgraduate.

who care.