Total Eclipse of the Heart;

dear diary

Just read his blog.. He used to give me an impression of shy, introvert person. However, i am feeling his changes. He has became a more mature and a person who really has his own thoughts. He became very positive, i am not sure if i have misunderstood him earlier, or he has been optimistic all the while. He shows me a very positive sides of life, he sees life in a very simple and easy way. Maybe not that he believe life is simple, maybe he choose to see them positively? His encourages and his advices are just simple and straight foward. But, i know, inside of him, is always struggling about what been around him, he doesnt look like he is, lots of things he cant really let go yet. But glad, that he always choose the wisest and good sides of solutions.

To him, just a simple meet up, enjoying movie after work, goin for sport once in a week, surfing the net after working for the whole days.. all these seems enjoyable to him. I believe he has more wishes and things that he wants. But he choose to appreciate what he has now. Instead of looking and dreaming for what in future. I look upon him. Because i live like how he does.. I think far far away.. i think things beyond my abilities.. but, i dont work for them.. So, now they are dreams.. 10 years later, they mite be dreams also.. but i m a very ambitious person. I want a good career, i want to achieve in life. But, currently i dont see any ways for me to get brighter, so i m stucked...-end-

who care.