anybody know what kind of person im? sometimes i don even understand myself.. m i a considering person or m i just a Buffalo? i see myself as a very considering friend. i always think on people's side. i want to bring the best and most convenient to others. However, people that i really close with and care most always might sometimes feel im over and not considering. Maybe THey are ppls who are closest with me, so they probably have higher expectation on me? Or in the other way, maybe im the one expecting too much , especialy when treating ppls who i care most? Its them changing me or i am changing my own expectation on them?

To most frens, they always think i m good in many ways. To most olddies, aunties uncles, also said that i m a nice and easy going and understanding person. But why, when it come for family and people who i really care of, i don seem to be so perfect anymore?

2 theories to explain. EIther its bcz they are most important to you and you are much important to them, therefore unconsciously their level or your level of expectation to them or theirs to you wil be increased. Its at the level of we wil never approach or achieve. the second theory, would be that frens or others hasnt really see you truly like how your family or love did. They just see the good side of you, thats why they are your frens. If your bad sides is more than good side, probably they wont be ur frens anymore..


both are just my theories. No scientic proved yet. Maybe i shall test on that. Maybe for my next research paper, i shall work out with this. To clarified myself here, i m not finding trouble for doing this. Its just purely my interest to know more bout human, to understand why are there so many types of attitudes and thoughts that affected billions of people each year.. Why we are born with this instinct-think/act thru brain processes..