Total Eclipse of the Heart;

8:50 AM

Today i went thru up and down... let me began with the down part of my day..

I been puting too much expectation on others, i treat them with my full heart and concern, in return, i expected that they will accept my kind, my generousity by treating me back just like how they been treated. However, that's not always the case. People accepted ur help ur offers ur generousity, but they never know how to treat u back. Im not gonna mention who are they here. But i swear to GOD, i treat everyone of them sincerely and truelly concern and want the best for them. But i wonder why these ppl can actualy forget or shod i said they ignored what u have done to them. After receiving ur helps, they r totaly a diff person. I ve been always giving out and got no return from them. Sometimes i can just ignore ur coldness n selfishness, but u guys, are just disapointing, seems that i ve never stand a part in ur life and heart. Maybe just a little.. i can not to bother what she is doing,but i cant accept that u are just ignorance and being control by her. Its just few months u both started, n now u r totaly a changed person. Where is the Mr.X i get to know lastime. The one who treated me as true fren, concern bout me, listen to me. I understand that u mite not have time for me anymore, but just a little concern, is that so hard for u?haiz... anyway, thanks to both of u. Becuz of you guys,now i know what best to do is take care of myself better than you guys and learning to treat myself better than i used to....

Now i will share the happy part of my day...Its a big day to me...and this happened under my expectation...i dono where did i get this gut and intention.. A strong intention to take action immediately..haha...know what did? FInaly i don have to live in lie..i built my gut to call mum and let her know that i m in love, and started a relationship..to my surprise, mum's reaction is kinda good and not that scary s i tot..She said she will never stop me or disagree with my decision, instead, she said she is happy for me because i have grown up and matured! lol.. When mum asked who is the HIM, she didnt get surprised as she said she might have predicted... at first, i was still worry tat mum mite not like him, but to my surprise, mum said y m i so worry, s since lastime, she kinda like this guy. I guess its the most touching moment i ever had with mum..i whipped..i began with apology, i told her that that i did something tat u would never like me to do.. haha... sound bit Kua Zhang huh? but its not to my family.. PAktoh, its like a very big deal at home n to my parents.. mum ended the call by hopping i will get my happiness and ask me to take care and be sure what im doing. Besides, she said i may ask him to pay few visit at home and ask him to have few drinks with her. What my mum great is, she will never make my fren feel bad or make my fren difficult. Im sure my mum will like him more nextime.. but one thing i didnt tel mum was, when i started. i just told her the feeling became stronger when i m here..now i told her we are now together...Yipee..i dont have to hide my feeling anymore..i alwiz dream to share my life and feeling with parents, but never get the chance and gut. Now i had my first step out, i told my mum... but not dad yet.. when its the right time, i will talk to dad..but just not now..he is still that stubborn and not understanding..Cheer for future! =)

who care.