Total Eclipse of the Heart;

i have some personal uncertainties in my inner world which kep bothering my thinking and my life..Remember i have been saying others changed since i came Aus? now, i realize, i changed s time goes by..i changed to be quite psycho. having some uncontrollable moment and problem with heart-related problem, anger management, stress management, grief & loss moments and extreme jealousy. Few of these problems been reflecting in my daily life. its part of my life circle..it began every mon..then it get sto stop during Fri and the weekend. i know whats bothering me, but i just seem helpless and cant get rid of those irrational thoughts..i learn to focus on my thinking, revealing my own mistakes..however, its stil not worrking..We customarily telling ppl to do this and not to do that when somebody is being depressed. however, when we actualy experience it, only we will get to know the exact feeling and understand it. we as human are born with an ability to be a rational thinker and also a tendency to be UNIQUELY irrational and sometimes will have those crooked thinking. we are all naive psychologist that like to see the cause and consequences of others' behaviours by using our own general theory. Thus, we closed ourselves in our small world, having our own small thinking. we like to know and understand others. Subsequently, if u r having a Negative n over generalized theory and perception on others, that it may not work in a proper way. Can see that, i m now having kinda negative perspective on others. Just a little small matter, i will Crooked it with my own reason. Its because i been exposing to much on those very Complex of thinking system?? or maybe its my instinct? GOd, get me out of here...

can i lock u ? keep u away from others? i don wan u to be exposed.. don wan others to see u..don even wan u to see and think of others..NOT AT ALL...can i ?... Its so unreasonable!!..why m i so overcontrolling? i nver used to be so Crazy...GOSH....i m certified as SIAO already...

who care.